"Kind of Perfect"
-Armor for Sleep

can I just be something
somewhere in your room
that you wont notice
maybe I’ll be paper
or books thrown on your floor
move me when you want to
I’ll live where you put me
in your VCR
if I become a cassette
or on top of your computer
if that’s where I would fit
then so be it
but things can’t be perfect
all the time
that I know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
I will not say one word
I’ll just hang around
I wont annoy you at all
when you move out I’ll stay
until I'm thrown away
but then it wont matter
things can’t be perfect
all the time
that I know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
because
things can’t be perfect
all the time
that I know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
I promise to stop now
to stop now
I promise to stop now
to stop now
but things can’t be perfect
all the time
that I know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
things can’t be perfect
all the time
that I know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
letting go is my life
I’ll be on my way


just sitting here...contemplating things...this song came on and it seems to be the one Armor for Sleep song that sticks out from the rest of em and it hits the nail on the head..."things can't be perfect all the time that i know. sometimes we just have to let some things go..." i agree...but what if you never had whatever it was to begin with? what if even though you feel so strongly about something, like it was already predetermined in life, but you knew it could never be? what are you supposed to do? say? think? but most importantly, do you just let it go? even if it seems like its way beyond your reach and there is no hope...do you continue to try for it...is it even worth it? is all that effort pointless in the end? or what if you're wrong about it all? what if what you thought was the truth never really was, the truth? what if you're just telling yourself it could never be, because you're just afraid that it could really be? and you're too afraid to admit that what you believe is presently true, isn't and you really are meant to be with someone who is out of your reach? but if you're truly meant to be, won't fate find a way? if it's all predetermined to begin with, then is all of the anguish and torment you're putting yourself through really worth it? why not just let it come together? why not just go on with your life, be happy, reach your goals and let fate take its course?
i guess i never really thought about it like that...or maybe its because its 5AM and i haven't slept in the past four days...well, whatever it is, i'm just confused and a little concerned...i can't really say what exactly i'm referring to in this journal, but i guess if you'd like to know, u can ask me privately...depending who you are, i might tell you. well, okay, i DOUBT i'm going to tell anyone, but hey, u can try!
if you can answer any of my questions, go ahead...if you think you know what i'm referring to, then u can prolly answer my questions!

anyhoo, i'm beat. i'm gonna go lay down and attempt to sleep.

Goodnight my lovelies!

RORH